I remember my childhood like it was yesterday and it was such an amazing time in my life! I remember just always being outside playing with the neighborhood kids from morning till night literally. My mom would just call us in to eat and go to school pretty much! We lived in Armenia back then and we would just play outside with no parent supervision what so ever… it was so safe back then! My favorite was playing when it was snowing! We would make snow angels, snow mans, and have snow ball fights!
I feel like a lot of kids don’t get such a great childhood in this generation due to all the technology… I’m so glad that we didn’t have all that when I was a kid!
First and for most, boy I missed a few days and I’m kinda upset with myself but its been a crazy busy week so it’s ok…we can’t all be perfect at these challenges I guess. I’m going to skip the ones I missed except for dat 13 since that one kinda goes with todays. Day 13 was a bad habit of mine that I wish I didn’t have and todays is 3 healthy habits that I am working on.
Let’s start off with the bad one; I think we all have one bad habit that we wish we can change but it can be hard to do so. A habit of mine that I would love to get rid of is the fact that I overthink about everything and it’s always in a negative way. I absolutely hate it; it destroys me and causes me so much anxiety. I really need to find a way to change it… anyone else who overthinks and is so negative? Were you able to find a solution on how to help you overcome this habit? Please let me know.
The 3 healthy habits that I am currently working on, well I have stopped but I need to get back on it were:
Drinking a lot more water!!!
Exercising on a weekly basis.
Doing intermittent fasting.
I was so good about introducing these 3 habits into my everyday life for a while then I kinda just stopped since we got back from our Costa Rica trip. I have gained pretty much all the weight that I lost this year back in a few months…its awful so I need to get myself back onto it!
This blog post is perfect for today, I woke up feeling so depressed and so sad about myself and just life itself. I literally started crying while driving to work this morning…it just was such a sad day. When I have these days, I love to just stay in bed, watch videos, movies, and read some books. I love my husband and I love to talk to him but sometimes I just like to be left alone…I feel like that makes me feel better then if I was with anyone else…does that make sense? I like to just let myself cry if I want too and usually a book will distract me to the point where I just instantly feel better. Today I had to work and couldn’t just call in to stay home just because I was feeling depressed even though yes I know everyone needs a mental day off I just didn’t feel like I needed that so much today. I went about my day, was sad a lot but working with the kids, I have to just put my feelings aside and concentrate on them so I was so busy I didn’t have as much time to think until I left work and drove home to get in bed and eat away my feelings. I’m such a stress and emotional eater its so bad but sometimes that helps too.
I wish I could say I do yoga, or mediate to relieve some of the sadness and emotions I feel but I really don’t do any of those.
Honestly there’s a lot more that I watch but I feel like these are the main ones I look for constantly…like no joke! Oh and the greatest part is that I met Alisha and Remi this year…I had lost my voice and all so I couldn’t really talk to them like I wanted to but still…it was amazing!
I have been sitting here in front of my laptop for the past 20 minutes trying to get the courage to write this blog post and if you saw my instagram then you saw me saying how much I didn’t want to write this post, if you don’t follow me on instagram you totally should and let me know you came from here and I’ll follow back! Anyways, I don’t even know why I included this specific post in the challenge but for some reason or another I did and here we are. I have had a few difficult times in my life and I wanted to talk about two main ones.
The first difficult time was when I lost my uncle suddenly along with my sweet sweet grandma and my dog coco. I lost my uncle in March of 2017, my grandma in February of 2019 and my dog June of 2019. I took all 3 deaths very hard…my uncle none of us knew he had a heart issue or anything of that sort till he passed away from a heart attack suddenly at such a young age too. My sweet grandma, she was the one I was the most closest two out of both my grandmothers. I get my personality from her, she just made me feel so special and so extremely loved and I miss her so so much. And my dog…well he was my first dog baby ever and it breaks my heart that he got so sick so quick and that nothing helped him get better.
The second difficult time is what I’m also currently going through and that is infertility. I think I have posted a blog post about how my husband and I have been trying for years to get pregnant and we just can’t and honestly its such a emotional thing and so heartbreaking too. We are currently trying different things, I’m seeing a specialist sort of and I just started taking the <a href="http://<a target="_blank" href="https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B013RMKCV4/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=9325&creativeASIN=B013RMKCV4&linkCode=as2&tag=lifethoughtsa-20&linkId=25f7aed9c1b07cf2627548fb81f0c825">Conception Fertility Prenatal Vitamins – Regulate Your Cycle, Balance Hormones, Aid Ovulation – Myo-Inositol, Vitex, Folate Folic Acid Pills – 60 Vegetarian Soft Capsules</a>conception pills. So far this pill is helping and I have only been taking it for a few days…it helped me get my period which I hadn’t gotten in a few months (I know TMI but hey its my blog and it’s all about my life so I will write what I please) anyways…so we shall see if these pills help which I really hope they do because I really would love to become a mom. If nothing still works, I will eventually go see a infertility specialist and see what we can do, but I want to try other things first before I spend so much $$$ on treatments.
Winning the lottery is a dream/wish for many many of us…right???
I think if I had won the lottery I would first of all pay off mine and my husbands cars off, pay off both of our parents houses along with give him money. I would also buy a house of our dreams with my husband then buy a bunch of land and build homes to rent out. I would even open up my own indoor playground like I do want to do eventually; I would also donate money to the children’s hospital… if you know me then you know kids are my life so of course I would do something for them! I would also love to donate to a charity that helps children who don’t have families or food too!
my proudest moment if you had asked me a few years ago would have been that I graduated at a university with my bachelors while working full time constantly! It was by far one of the hardest things I had done so I was extremely proud of myself when I finally graduated! But now my proudest moment would have to be marrying my best friend… my love… my husband!
I always dreamt of falling in love and marrying someone who I can share everything with for the rest of my life since I was a little girl and when I met my husband, I couldn’t believe that my dream was actually coming true! I am so proud to have him in my life, so proud of us for creating this marriage chapter in our life… which by the way today is our 5 year wedding anniversary so how amazing is that???
Happy Anniversary my love! I love you so much & I’m so incredibly blessed and lucky to to be your wife!