Boy it’s been a while since I have blogged! Life has been so crazy the past few months with everything going on. Im sure this whole coronavirus thing has affected so many people; whether it’s been losing a loved one to it, losing their job, their home, to just feeling so stressed and going through depression. I know working during this pandemic has been such a blessing but also so stressful too for those working. I am such an emotional and stress eater and I eat everything that is awful for me. I of course went and got blood work done before COVID hit and got diagnosed with pcos, pre diabetics, and a few more other stuff. I was suppose to start a new healthy lifestyle and change my eating habits but it honestly all went to hell after COVID hit. I went through so much stress and depression that it has now lead me to be the biggest I have ever been. I have been feeling so depressed and just so disgusted with myself that I just turn to sugar and carbs and everything that’s horrible for me and my health. I’m sick of feeling this way, feeling so huge, so ugly, so exhausted all the damn time! I am finally ready for a change and that starts tomorrow. It’s not going to be easy I know I’m going to struggle but I have to make the change and I hope I can document my journey on here and my Instagram. I plan on doing intermittent fasting – starting with 14 hours then moving up to 15 then 16. Like I mentioned, I have an obsession to sugar, carbs and everything gluten so I am going to try to lower my intake of those by 80% and just choose healthy unprocessed foods. I hope you can follow and support me along with my journey.
I had a hard time coming up with a blog name, no matter what I came up with just didn’t sound catchy or good enough. I finally came up with one but then completely changed it to what it is now…Thoughts with Suz. And it’s exactly what it is, it’s my thoughts…obviously my blog is about my life blog along with lifestyle so it just made sense to name it that and I really like it! I blog about my struggles with my weight, about infertility, I share recipes, talk about life, my obsession with coffee, tea, and Disneyland and now my puppy! I hope you can follow me along this journey!
For the past 12 to 15 years, being a nanny is what my career has been and probably will be for the next few years too. However, what I would love to be is a stay at home mom once we have a baby, but I don’t just want to be a stay at home mom. I would love to be able to work from home as a blogger and a photographer. At one point in my life, I wanted to become a book editor so I actually wouldn’t mind if I did that part time while being a stay at home mom. I am such a homebody that I would love nothing more than being at home and working from home.
I think now more than ever, we are missing so many people; I know I miss so many in my life that I cannot see or visit right now. However, the person that I absolutely miss the most is my sweet angel grandma who sadly passed away. My grandma passed away last year and the last time I saw her in person was in September of 2015 before she moved back to Armenia. This sweet grandma of mine was the one I was the closest too, the one who I am so similar too, the one with the biggest heart ever. I miss her so so much.
Meet my precious baby girl Daisy Lou! She is a toy Maltipoo and only weighs 2 pounds as of a week ago. I got her Sunday May 3rd when she was 8 weeks old! I had a boy Maltipoo who sadly passed away last year after he got really sick and he was 9 years old. I always wanted a girl dog to name her Daisy and I’m so glad I finally found her! I’m so in love with Daisy and I cannot wait to see her grow. 🥰
We all have those days where we are feeling very down, sad and just depressed. I have been having them a lot more recently the past few years and I still struggle with how to really get out of it; however, I always have a few things that I like to do to improve my mood.
I feel like the past few years I have become such a negative person and I hate it. I have been struggling with trying to change that about myself because I really don’t like it. I miss being so happy and positive and full of self esteem. Right now, I’m constantly thinking so negative about myself, and everyone around me….it’s so bad! I have been trying very hard the past few weeks to try and be better but its been hard. I have considered maybe going to therapy and so I’m debating about it because part of me thinks that maybe that will help.