I wish I had…


For today’s blog post, I need to write one thing that I wish I had right now; well that for me would be a child. I always knew I wanted to be a mom and have children; I always dreamt of being a stay at home mom and even working part time from home. My husband and I have tried before in the past to try and get pregnant and sadly I never got a positive in my pregnancy test within that year. I decided to take a break because it was affecting me so much and causing me to get so depressed from it. So we did, we took a 2 to 3 years off of trying and started up again trying a little less than a year in a half ago, and we still have not gotten a positive on a pregnancy test. I was diagnosed with PCOS and early stages of Pre Diabetes and Cholesterol; however, because those were very early on, they told me that with my diet change and exercise I can get rid of it without any medication. I was going to go to a specialist to get more testing done to see how my uterus looks, etc however, this whole coronavirus stuff happened so I have to wait till everything clears up before I can get more testing done. But all I can do now is be patient and not be so hard on myself on the fact that I am not a mom yet…

Infertility sucks!!!!

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Day 10: Difficult time…

I have been sitting here in front of my laptop for the past 20 minutes trying to get the courage to write this blog post and if you saw my instagram then you saw me saying how much I didn’t want to write this post, if you don’t follow me on instagram you totally should and let me know you came from here and I’ll follow back! Anyways, I don’t even know why I included this specific post in the challenge but for some reason or another I did and here we are. I have had a few difficult times in my life and I wanted to talk about two main ones.

The first difficult time was when I lost my uncle suddenly along with my sweet sweet grandma and my dog coco. I lost my uncle in March of 2017, my grandma in February of 2019 and my dog June of 2019. I took all 3 deaths very hard…my uncle none of us knew he had a heart issue or anything of that sort till he passed away from a heart attack suddenly at such a young age too. My sweet grandma, she was the one I was the most closest two out of both my grandmothers. I get my personality from her, she just made me feel so special and so extremely loved and I miss her so so much. And my dog…well he was my first dog baby ever and it breaks my heart that he got so sick so quick and that nothing helped him get better.

The second difficult time is what I’m also currently going through and that is infertility. I think I have posted a blog post about how my husband and I have been trying for years to get pregnant and we just can’t and honestly its such a emotional thing and so heartbreaking too. We are currently trying different things, I’m seeing a specialist sort of and I just started taking the <a href="http://<a target="_blank" href="">Conception Fertility Prenatal Vitamins – Regulate Your Cycle, Balance Hormones, Aid Ovulation – Myo-Inositol, Vitex, Folate Folic Acid Pills – 60 Vegetarian Soft Capsules</a>""conception pills. So far this pill is helping and I have only been taking it for a few days…it helped me get my period which I hadn’t gotten in a few months (I know TMI but hey its my blog and it’s all about my life so I will write what I please) anyways…so we shall see if these pills help which I really hope they do because I really would love to become a mom. If nothing still works, I will eventually go see a infertility specialist and see what we can do, but I want to try other things first before I spend so much $$$ on treatments.