life, weight loss

Feeling so disgusted with myself!

Boy it’s been a while since I have blogged! Life has been so crazy the past few months with everything going on. Im sure this whole coronavirus thing has affected so many people; whether it’s been losing a loved one to it, losing their job, their home, to just feeling so stressed and going through depression. I know working during this pandemic has been such a blessing but also so stressful too for those working. I am such an emotional and stress eater and I eat everything that is awful for me. I of course went and got blood work done before COVID hit and got diagnosed with pcos, pre diabetics, and a few more other stuff. I was suppose to start a new healthy lifestyle and change my eating habits but it honestly all went to hell after COVID hit. I went through so much stress and depression that it has now lead me to be the biggest I have ever been. I have been feeling so depressed and just so disgusted with myself that I just turn to sugar and carbs and everything that’s horrible for me and my health. I’m sick of feeling this way, feeling so huge, so ugly, so exhausted all the damn time! I am finally ready for a change and that starts tomorrow. It’s not going to be easy I know I’m going to struggle but I have to make the change and I hope I can document my journey on here and my Instagram. I plan on doing intermittent fasting – starting with 14 hours then moving up to 15 then 16. Like I mentioned, I have an obsession to sugar, carbs and everything gluten so I am going to try to lower my intake of those by 80% and just choose healthy unprocessed foods. I hope you can follow and support me along with my journey.

How have you been doing during this pandemic???

health, infertility

Finally went to the Doctor…

About three weeks ago, I did something that I have been wanting to do for so long but kept putting it off for fear of what the results would be. I finally went to the doctor to get blood work done to see if I do or do not have PCOS, which I kept thinking I did because I had all the symptoms for it practically. I did the blood work and sure enough I was officially diagnosed with PCOS, which I was not at all surprised about it; what I was surprised about was the fact that I was also diagnosed with super early stages of pre diabetes and cholesterol. My doctor and I decided that it’s best for me to go on a diet or better yet change my lifestyle to try and get rid of my pre diabetes and cholesterol and hopefully my PCOS too. So now instead of taking medicine to help control it all, I will be changing my eating habits and exercising which exercising I have been good about this year….been doing some sort of cardio every day and strength training at least 2 to 3 times a week. I think my eating habits is what is going to be the hardest thing for me to change but I know I can do it… I have to do it so I can get rid of these craziness and lose weight and hopefully get pregnant naturally instead of doing infertility treatments; which I’m open to doing if I’m still not pregnant by the end of this year because that would have then been 2 years of trying without success. I would love to connect with others who are struggling with the same thing.

goals

March Goals

Boy this year is just flying on by isn’t it? It’s hard to believe it’s already March 1st, but it is and it is time to write my monthly goals for March. But first, let me look back on my February goals; I was able to complete all my goals except for one. I did not lose 6 to 9 pounds like I had hoped to lose but that’s ok!

Here are my monthly goals for March:

  • Upload 5 blog posts.
  • Read 1 book.
  • Be more social on social media and interact with fellow bloggers.
  • Follow a low fat diet.
  • Lose 3 to 5 pounds.

What are your monthly goals for this month?

xoxo