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Weight Loss Journey Week 1 Update!

It has been a little over a week since I started doing my weight loss journey chart. When I started last Monday the eight of March, my weight was 291.2. What I was doing was fasting mainly 14 hours, I would walk either 1 or 1.5 miles a day, I did three days of strength training, drank over 100 oz of water daily except for 2 days where I only had half, and read for over 10 minutes. I did take one day off though. I did not lose weight, I did gain .4 pounds and I think that it is because Friday night and Saturday I ate really bad and heavy food and heavy food does not settle good with me so that was the cause of it. I decided that starting this Monday I would do dirty fasting, meaning I would clean fast only water for the first at least 14 hours then have coffee with creamer and water only until about anywhere from 17 to 19 hours then break my fast with food. Why coffee in creamer? Why not just have plain black coffee and do clean fasting? Well I cannot stand the taste of black coffee alone, I have to either have cream or sugar in it and honestly having creamer in my coffee kills my hunger so much. I started this on Monday and my weight was 291.6 and just by doing this along with working out once sometimes even twice a day I have lost 3.4 pounds in just a matter of 2 days.

The hardest part has been the water honestly, some days I am so good and do about a gallon a day and other days I am not. The days I am not I will mix some liquid iv in a cup of water and drink that to make sure I still am hydrated. As far as food goes, I am not following any type of diet, I do watch what I eat, sure I will have some meals that are worse than other like I did Friday night and Saturday but I am human and I’m not going to punish myself. I will just make sure I do better the next day. If I tell myself I am on a diet, I will automatically fail…not sure if some of you guys are like that too but that’s just how I am.

Here is my chart completed up until today, I am still working on today that’s why some of the spots are still not marked!

Weight Loss Journey

After I wrote my last blog post regarding my frustrations with my weight and infertility, I decided to make a weight loss journey chart where I am having myself do certain things everyday to achieve my goal. My goal right now is to lose between 30 to 40 pounds by my birthday which is July 31st; which gives me 21 weeks to do so.

Here is the chart I have been made and have been using:

As you can see, I have the days of the week written down and so next to each day I will weigh my self every morning and write my weight down…I recently saw a tik Tok where someone mentioned how weighing yourself is better because when you do it weekly like I use to do, you might be losing weight during the week but the night before you may have too much water, too much salt, went out to eat and ate more than usual so your weight is higher than it was suppose to be. So you lose motivation that you’re not losing weight, that what you are dong isn’t working. I never thought about it that way so here I am now just weighing myself every morning and writing it down next to each day.

Lets go over each task:

*Intermittent Fasting 12 to 16 hours: I right now am only fasting for weight loss purposes; most days I fast for 14 hours which is doable for me and I have done this before and have lost weight with just fasting 14 hours. Some days I will end my fast at 13 other days 14. It really depends on the day. However, this really helps me because I am such a snack person so I will literally snack until I go to sleep…I guess you can I have NO SELF CONTROL! Well if I am fasting obviously I cant so that helps a lot. I cannot go too long while I am hungry because I get shaky so what I try to do is I will break my fast with coffee and creamer, this will hold me for a while and then I’ll usually eat something an hour or two later. Again I use to wake up and had to eat before so this is progress. I do want to try to fast eventually for the health benefits of it but just not yet, maybe in the future!

*Walking 1 to 2 miles a day. I am a slow walker and usually need 2 or so breaks in-between, so right now my 1 mile takes me about 28 or so minutes.

*Strength training 3 to 4 times, I want to get stronger plus strength training helps with weight loss so I want to do it 3 to 4 times a week along side cardio.

*128 oz of water or more. I am so bad about drinking water and so far since I started this little chart on Monday, I have been really good about drinking my water…its a struggle though and the amount of times I have to go to the bathroom now is insane!

*Read for at least 10 minutes. One thing I really enjoyed about 75 hard was the reading part, it forced me to sit down and read and so I knew I had to include this in here. I mean who doesn’t want to educate themselves everyday right?

Well those are the tasks, I obviously didn’t put anything regarding diet because any “DIET” I will automatically fail…I hate the word so what I do is I just watch what I eat.

Next Monday will be a week that I am doing this so I will share my weekly chart and how I feel, my progress, etc on a weekly basis!

Weight Loss and Infertility!

January 1st, I started 75 hard again for the 3rd time and sadly failed again! I had told myself that I would try it three times before I fully gave up on the program and well I did, I tried it three times and failed all three times! Now part of me wants to try again but part of me says no its too much with literally no days off! The hardest part for me was the doing two workout a day for 75 days straight, along with the water intake too!

I took a few weeks off of working out and decided that it is time to get back to working out again! So I am back on it starting today and will be doing these at least 5 to 7 times a week! If I can do it everyday great, if I notice that I need a day off then I will give my body a day off! I just don’t want to give myself to many days off because I literally lose the motivation and it makes it 1000 times harder to start up again! And honestly I am so tired of starting up again or losing the motivation and gaining weight. I along with so many other ladies who have hormone issues, who have PCOS know just how hard it can be for us and I honestly fuckin HATE it! I hate the fact that it makes it so much more harder for us to lose the weight but gain 3 pounds just by thinking about a donut…sad but true! Life isn’t fair, it isn’t fair that its harder for us, it isn’t fair that I have to struggle getting pregnant, it isn’t fair that I have been off birth control for over 2 – 3 years now and have not had a pregnancy test come back negative! I want a baby so bad and I hate my body for not allowing me to become a mom! Sometimes the anger and sadness I feel literally breaks me down so badly, I honestly believe I have depression because of this! I hate being so rough to myself, being so negative towards myself and hating myself and my body most of the time.

I want to change how I feel about myself… I NEED to change how I feel about myself! Because in the end no one can change it but me. If I don’t love myself, if I don’t work on myself, if I don’t motivate myself…who will???

I am doing this for me and for my future babies! I cant imagine myself never being a mom to a baby…I just cant, it breaks my heart! I have to change… I need to change… I have to take the steps to change!

Failed 75 Hard AGAIN!

Yesterday was day 29 for me on the 75 hard challenge and I Failed for the 3rd time! When I first started this challenge last August, I told myself that I would try this challenge and if I failed to try again at least 3 times before fully giving up on it. Well this was my 3rd and finally attempted and I failed and that is ok! I at least tried it and gave it my best. Like Andy said this challenge isn’t for everyone, not everyone is going to complete the challenge when they start. But I am proud of myself for completing 28 fully days of it and losing 6.4 lbs in the process of it. I do like the challenge but the two workouts were by far the most challenging for me and made me kinda dread my 2nd workout and not put as much effort into it. So going forward, I plan on doing at least an hour of work out a day, but giving myself a rest day or two the most. I also plan on drinking a gallon of water still, watching what I eat, taking progress photo once a week though and reading. I read two full books this month and started a 3rd and I want to keep going on that. I want to read at least one to two books every month!

Last Blog Post: Day 1 & 2 of 75 Hard!

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Finally went to the Doctor…

About three weeks ago, I did something that I have been wanting to do for so long but kept putting it off for fear of what the results would be. I finally went to the doctor to get blood work done to see if I do or do not have PCOS, which I kept thinking I did because I had all the symptoms for it practically. I did the blood work and sure enough I was officially diagnosed with PCOS, which I was not at all surprised about it; what I was surprised about was the fact that I was also diagnosed with super early stages of pre diabetes and cholesterol. My doctor and I decided that it’s best for me to go on a diet or better yet change my lifestyle to try and get rid of my pre diabetes and cholesterol and hopefully my PCOS too. So now instead of taking medicine to help control it all, I will be changing my eating habits and exercising which exercising I have been good about this year….been doing some sort of cardio every day and strength training at least 2 to 3 times a week. I think my eating habits is what is going to be the hardest thing for me to change but I know I can do it… I have to do it so I can get rid of these craziness and lose weight and hopefully get pregnant naturally instead of doing infertility treatments; which I’m open to doing if I’m still not pregnant by the end of this year because that would have then been 2 years of trying without success. I would love to connect with others who are struggling with the same thing.