A difficult time in my life would now and for the past year to year in a half. Last January I decided to get off my birth control to try again to see if maybe this time around I can get pregnant. I had tried for over a year a few years ago and decided to take a break and get back on my birth control pills to try and regulate my period since I hadn’t had it in over a year. Since last January I have been successful at getting a period every other month or so but still haven’t gotten pregnant. It’s so heartbreaking when all I want is a baby. I finally went and got checked and found out I do in fact have PCOS. I know if I lose weight it might be easier for me to get pregnant (MAYBE) and I get that motivation to lose weight but then again stop after a while…I suck at sticking to something…its so bad! Right now I know everyone is having such a hard time with everything going on regarding COVID-19 and I feel like my depression and my anxiety has gotten so extremely bad during this time and because I keep gaining more weight because I’m such a stress eater it just makes it worse. I have been thinking about maybe seeing a therapist like doing online therapy to help me cope with everything and when life gets back to somewhat “normal” finish going back to the drs for more testing to figure out if there’s something else that is causing me not to get pregnant. 

Infertility sucks, so does depression!